The long road ahead in homeschooling

 

As I lay here thinking about what's ahead, I'm reminded of how far I've come. I know I could not do this in my strength. It takes courage to homeschool. As someone who grew up highly insecure because I had a serious stutter. I would get nervous reading out loud in a classroom setting. I would itch all over because, I knew I was going to stutter on p words, b words, m words, l words, c/k words, and last a words. I felt defeated. Why did I have to stutter? Why can't I just flow my words properly? I did notice one thing though, in my 12-grade year of high school, I had to do a presentation on Anthrax for the entire 12-grade science class. The auditorium was filled. I was to go first then my partner would go after me. I felt this burst of energy to do the entire presentation without one stutter. I always wondered why in smaller settings I tend to stutter, whereas I'm in larger settings I could flow? I think the reason is that I didn't know what was ahead of me. I couldn't see faces, hear kids laughing, or me itching. Whereas a smaller setting is more personal. You're more exposed to mistakes and people can see you. Over the years, the Most High took away my stutter completely. I learned to relax and breathe through my words. I'm sharing this because the road ahead is long. I have insecurities that I deal with, and I'm teaching my children to face the road ahead even if they don't know. Homeschooling exposes all my flaws and insecurities. Therefore I can acknowledge and fix the problem. Never would I have imagined I would be homeschooling three children. But Yah had a different plan for me. 1Corinthians 1:27 says, but Eloah hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise, and Eloah hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty To some, "I'm a fool to homeschool". To many, "I don't agree with her because she doesn't have a license to teach". Yah has chosen me for such time as this to be a fool to many, but wise in Him. The journey ahead is a long one, but I will overcome it, my children will graduate and both my husband and children will call me blessed, as per written in proverbs. Ladies, continue to be a fool to society. They may not agree with your stance, but they will respect you because your purpose is to confound the wise. I hope I provoked thought today. Peace 🌹