Healing from abandonment

She wears a mask to cover the broken parts

Her face is covered in the battle scars from her heart

Shes extra sensitive to cold hard water

She wonders why is it easy for people to leave.

Why do we abandon those we claim to love or care about?

Why do we cut with words?

Words are swords that we use to destroy ourselves and each other

When I remove the mask will they still love me?

If I stop chasing dancing dreams will I be missed?

If I focus on myself, will I be able to heal?

Or should I be a cold-hearted selfish lie?

What if I stopped caring as people do?

What if I stopped showing patience?

Maybe I'm insane, I can't hide behind her

I must address her. The abandonment that I struggle with from people

Is because I have abandoned myself in the process of loving others

Maybe I should withhold love and keep it for myself for a season

Then maybe I can be set free from you the spirit of abandonment...

However, I look at myself

I can't see wrath in me

Even though selfishness wants to rule me

I can't allow it

So I must heal completely and continue to live on purpose

And be present even when life forces me not to be. Usually, I just run away but im tired of running.🌹

To my readers, I will be taking a few days off. I hope you find value in the other available post. Peace everyone and be present🥂🌹