Is anyone here lol

 This is a test post lol is anyone here? 

I've been gone for a minute…

Lol, is this thing on? Ahem, had to wipe some dust off this page. This is just a brief update to let you know that I am alive and well, and yes, I am still writing. I've been active on various platforms, but this was my starting point. My first blog spot. Last time I was here, there were a lot of issues, but I've grown a bit in technology, so I am willing to try again and rebrand a bit. So stay tuned, or not but I am trying again. 😊🙌🏽

PS still trying to figure out this bug issue on here. Thankfully Chatgpt can give me some tips😊

Standardized Testing for Homeschoolers? Homeschool Update

 

Well, the time has come that I have dreaded for years. It is to give my oldest her standardized test. Here in the Belly of the Beast state, it is required to be given and sent with her final report for grade 5. I don't think they are necessary. To me, it puts the child in a boxed corner. Like a competition almost. It's like I have to rate her and I don't like it, however, we are still here so I have to do it. I know she will do well on her test, so I guess the problem is me. Did I teach her all the information? Did she retain it? Was I a good teacher? Etc. All these questions in my mind caused me to believe I wasn't a good enough teacher. However like I said in Monday's post, I am not going to give in to fear. I know she got this. Once she does accomplish this we are taking the entire summer off, just to enjoy ourselves from the load of school. So send positive thoughts her way, because her test is in a few days. Cheers to her for passing this test in advance🥂❤️💪.

*Update: Life has caused me to give her the test earlier, and she passed with flying colors, dogs, cats, and various raccoons. We are exhausted from the test. Me prepping her, and her for sitting through it to take it. But I'm proud of her and we will be enjoying our full summer break😎🎉🥂. 

To Publish in Power or Not?

Haylo everyone. So I have an opportunity to publish the second book that I am currently working on. The first book I didn't publish, I gave it away freely. So now I am wondering if I should go forth with it. It's scary to jump into something new like self-publishing. I don't want to step out if it's not worthy. I guess we all have our doubts, and this is one of mine in this season. With so much writers out here, and now with the internet, alot of people don't take time to read poetry. So at times I wonder if I am helping anyone. So this is a tough decision for me. But, I am thinking that if this is for me, it will be and everything will work out how it's supposed too. Well thank you all for listening to me. ❤️🙏

❤️5 Money Savings Tips While Living on One Income❤️

So with all the talk of inflation and societal changes, I thought I would share how we live on one income so I can stay home with the children. Now this may not be for everyone and that's okay. But I am just sharing some things from my perspective. We have tried many ways to do this and here are a few that work. 

1) We buy in bulk 

Buying main items in bulk has helped save a lot of money because there is no big major shopping very often. The things we buy are rice, noodles, quinoa, etc. Like the main dish type of thing. For other perishable items, we go to the local market for it. 

2) Laundry by hand 

Yes I know, the thought right? But with inflation making everything go up laundry costs go up as well. So we use a hand washer that is effective in cleaning all of our clothes. Now if it gets too much I do go to the laundry. But when I am on top of it it's not too bad.

3) Buying laundry detergent in bulk 

This has been a huge lifesaver. When we buy a big jug of detergent it can last for up to a year. I use it for everything as well to help cut costs.

5) Walking lol 

I have boycotted the trains in NYC because it is straight trash. So we stay local if we want to go anywhere or hitch a ride from a brother of ours. I like being driven around anyway😁

For now, I will leave those tips. I am not a financial advisor, but I hope my suggestions can help someone. If you have any money-saving tips feel free to comment below🙏❤️

The risk of using chatgpt

Haylo, so I started using Chatgpt. I like using this as a help to my homeschool. The older my children get, the more requirement and study is needed. So chatgpt has been a help to organize. However, there is another side to it. This actually can write poetry, rap rhymes, and other things that are supposed to come from the heart. We played around with it last week and it was hilarious, but it was empty. You can tell the difference between a genuine piece of writing, and empty cold word writing. So with that being said, it can be used as a substitute, but it can never substitute the personality and heart of the person who genuinely loves to write. I hope I have provoked thought in someone's mind today. Be carefree and have a great day 🕊️

Check out my book review !❤️

"I can't lie it took me a few sessions to read it but each time I feel like a deeper connection to you as a creative. 

It gave me the fuel to create a YouTube video 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽

Girl don't be surprised if your content is referenced within mine, I really felt myself relax reading through it. 

The fact that it's in presentation form was like an aha moment. You really took it to another level with that.

But thank you for sharing your gift with all of us. 

You are amazing! 

Continue to be full of Yah 🙌🏽"

Edited to protect identity. 

This is is exactly the feedback that is needed. It encourages me because I know that a few people are reading the book. In the process of reading, they felt inspired to create and go forth. Thank you dear for taking the time to read the book, providing feedback, and stepping out to create. ❤️😉

Moving On?

Happy Monday. So I had so many different thoughts for the past few days. I was thinking if I should move to another platform. Blogger is awesome in its particular ways, however, I want to expand my writings to a bigger platform. I think I can go forth and create and focus on growth through writing. So, I am still thinking about it because change is not always easy. Working on the blogger site is simple, safe, and sweet. However, I feel it's not as open for me to do what I need to so I can expand. So this is a short one today, but the lesson I am learning in this season is to go forth and create, and if that means moving on then so be it. So if everything lines up for me to cross the ocean then I will be leaving Blogger. Well, I hope you all have a creative day. 

The importance of social media breaks

Haylo👋 So there have been so many things happening in the world of social media. I know myself, if I am not careful I could become overwhelmed by it all. Social media can be such a useful tool, but also exhausting. So at times, it's best to pull back from it and just breathe. There are alot of changes happening in the world and we have to be ready for them. There are things I do want to accomplish so our household can be ready for such changes. These include food shortages, water shortages, Emp, and inflation rates. Sometimes with social media platforms in the way, it can become a distraction. For many, I believe this week is spring break. Go outside, enjoy your family, and enjoy different available activities. Lastly, use the tool as a learning device, don't let it use you😉. 

My small book of quotes the beginning

"Depression has no facial expressions. It can smile all day and laugh and the eyes that see it will think wow she's so happy..but only if you can see the darkness and isolation hidden in dark brown pupils that became death from stress. If only people  could see that her life is not as simple as it seems...if only...they noticed that the hope she was holding on to has finally dissipated, and maybe the creator will come searching for her since no one else will..."©️

"Life is full of illusions, but in reality, it's a cesspool of hell"©️

"This world has become a freezer, it was only a matter of time before I join them"©️

"When you look in the mirror, I hope you see, that once the water evaporates that same water will never return" ©️

~Aniyah InYah©️

             

Bitterness epidemic=crack epidemic

To heal naturally from bitterness is like going through withdrawal. From my observation, it looks like death trying to hold onto its rightful place. It eats you up from the inside out. It changes your appearance. Your body starts to decay. So going through the withdrawal process, death is fighting to hold on, and rightfully so. You may go through stages of depression, anxiety, and severe pain. However, it's a process that has to take place to be set free. Is it easy to do? No, it's not. Especially if it seeps into your soul because of the continued pain. When I finally let go of people that no longer serve a purpose in my life then the healing will be more effective. Bitterness has made me so tired. Tired of the state of people's mindsets. So with that, I'm saying peace to bitterness and I am choosing myself finally.❤️🙏The withdrawal process will be painful, but if I am going to survive this life healthy, then I have to start pouring into myself. 

"Don't be bitter, but be better" C.D.

Waiting through the struggle (Bonus post)

🔥A short story for those who feel lost, and no longer have hope🔥Please just hold on, as I hold on as well. ❤️🙏

The Sun says to the clouds, "Why do you look so full of anger today?" The Cloud responds, "Well I have alot of tears that needs to be released, but I was told it's not time for the rain yet." The Sun responded, "Well we were created to do as we are told. We hold no power in ourselves." The cloud replies, "But do you see that woman right there? She needs the rain so she can cry her tears." "Nope," says the Sun, "she must wait. She was created to wait on others as well as nature, so she must be patient." It finally rains so the cloud is free of his anger. The woman is grateful for the rain. She sits in the rain and contemplates her life, wondering why her life feels robotic and stagnant. She cries a painful sob from deep within. She's grateful that it didn't rain the other day because if it had rained, she would have ended it all. She no longer cared about people, because no one cared for her. She felt hopeless, drained, and lost all empathy she once carried inside. She felt she was The Scarecrow, The Tin Man,  and The Lion all at once, with no brain, no heart, or no courage. So had it rained that day, she would stand out in the ocean and wait for the strike of lighting to hit her. The Sun explained this to the cloud and he understood the importance of waiting. Had he moved earlier than what he was told, he would have played a role in her death. So even though it was raining today, she now has a better perspective on life and will go forward to maintain the things she feels she lacks. The end🙏

Fair use for educational purposes 

If you believe The Wiz 1978

https://youtu.be/DHzx2P4x63c

Journey to the future

My journey to the future is everyday 

So daily I think of a better way 

A better way to function 

Because I recognize my dysfunction 

Which will lead to my destruction 

So I strive to see through obstruction

And have better production 

My journey to the future is everyday 

So I strive to love 

In a world that has none 

My journey is not an easy one 

As I watch people become undone 

A people that had hope 

But lost it due to the dope 

That was given to us by a pope 

Who wanted to see the destruction 

Of a collective that had production 

Now please don't be offended friend 

This is just my observation until the end 

My journey to the future is right on time 

Through writing, I can heal myself 

And possibly a nation 

If I keep the dedication 

And people let go of their dysfunction 

My journey to the future will force me to grow 

So I must be cautious of the things I sow 

So I march on forward 

And see what im going toward 

Understanding that my journey to the future is here now.🙏

Hope in the Hallelujah

I woke up in a dream like state

Wondering why all the hate

Screaming to the Heavens asking why

Not sure if I should even try

The light before me was so bright

I just wanted to say goodnight

The Voice said my child what have you been through

I finally responded right on cue

Most High, where have you been in my life?

As I walked daily with little might

I cry out to you from my soul

But my tears only fall into a bowl

I do bad things and you hate me for it

I never really mean to be disobedient

You judge me daily for my mistakes

And now Most High, I feel its too late

The Voice says, my dear one I do not hate you so

Its the pride in you I want you to let go

Thrown into a sea of forgetfulness, just like your mistakes

Dear one its never to late

I'm here to comfort you for all your days

I am here for you to adjust your way

My child, come here and cry unto me

And I will show you wonders daily

I run to The Voice who speaks with grace

And continue to run my race

Knowing the Most High is with me through and through

I feel peace and I hope you do too. ❤️

Workforce/Prison one in the same

A short day in the life

Prison Guard: Wake up for chow time everyone. Come on it's time to move it. 

Alarm clock: Beep, beep, beep, wake up, wake up, it's time to get up.

Prison Guard: Alright, on the bus time to go work.

People: running for the train, or bus to get to work.

Prison Guard: Okay, here is your task for the day, peel the paint off the wall, then repaint the wall, then off to the factory to box off items to ship.

The boss man at work: Okay here is your task for the day, I need this paperwork done by 10 am, go to this place to pick up blah, blah, blah, etc.

Prison Guard: Noon time, time for chow, and yard time. You get one hour 

The boss man at work: Alright break time. You get one hour.

Prison Guard: alright it's the end of the day back home now. On the bus, here are your pay, commission, and wages for a day's work.

The boss man at work: Okay ill see you tomorrow. Your check will come in a week. 

Is it me or do both look identical? I don't know maybe it's just...me🤨

Something to really consider and think about. 🙏👀🍵

Positive Encouragement through media #Tabitha Brown

🙌✨🎉🎊Today marks my 100th post. I'm so happy to reach this milestone. Again, thank you all for your support. I learned to post a video, so this one is for the little people. Adults can benefit too. Please enjoy it🙌✨🎉🎊

Good day folks. As parents, we strive to show our children positive media content. I wanted to bring attention to Tabitha Brown today. She has a children's show called Tab time and it's made for children to see themselves in a positive light in media. One of my children's favorite episodes is called Loving who you are (the link will be at the end of the post). They enjoy this because it teaches them that even though they may look different, speak differently, or whatever the case may be, they understand the concept of loving who they were made to be. We are not all made the same, and that is perfectly fine. They have gifts and dreams that are different than the next child. We are all uniquely made and when we understand that, we will flourish in life. So to Mrs. Tab, I appreciate your dedication and also for not compromising who you are. We need the light in this dark world.❤️🙏🕯️

            Loving who you are. Tab Time 

             https://youtu.be/VLF0eNc4rOg

Fair use for educational purposes😁. If you see this Mrs. Tab please don't strike my small blog😉 Just sharing positivity❤️🕯️🙏

My hair: A preview of my second book

My hair is described by so many different perspectives 

But never from my perception 

They say it's nappy 

I say it makes me happy 

They say it's wild 

I say I love my beautiful styles 

They say it's too loud 

I say it makes me proud 

My hair stands out 

With puffs, locs, or even left out 

My hair connects with nature 

Which was made by The Creator 

So don't be mad because my hair is versatile 

Just appreciate it without being vile 

My hair is beautiful, can't you see 

Because it's made for naturally me🌺

Sleep, i feel

Sleep I feel,

No sorrow 

No pain 

There is nothing I have to gain 

No rejection 

No neglecting 

No battles with why I'm not selected 

No burns 

No twist and turns 

No more life lessons to learn 

No expression 

No oppression 

No longer thinking about transgression 

No projection 

No protection 

No longer battling with depression 

No questions 

No expressions 

No longer having to make an impression 

No singing 

No thinking 

With sleep, I feel....nothing

Change of scenery

Haylo🕯️So I decided to change the scenery a bit for spring. To give it a brighter color, and some of the words you can see much better. I do hope I did justice to your sight lol. Any tips or suggestions, you can leave a comment, or you can contact me on the link on the page. Thank you for your continued support💐🙏

Judgment

Are we in a proper position to make judgments?

When many of us are not in proper alignment?

Living in a world full of discontentment?

Examining self, you will find a stony heart 

That was produced from the start 

We made it into a fine art 

Oh how we all fell apart 

Judgment 

Am I the one to make a call so sharp?

When I have thrown many darts?

And corrupted many weak hearts?

Oh, what have we become as people?

We have dug ourselves into a deep hole 

No matter how hard we try to climb out 

The dirt beneath our fingers keeps us blind 

We have become blind to the fact, that we too are dirt 

That have become hardened to someones plight 

Not seeing their fight...

Judgment 

How many of us called on judgment?

Without understanding, that their judgment will also be ours....selah🌷😳